Why must one choose, when the choice isn't theirs to make?

I'm in an ever constant mood of changing ideas. To me the only constant thing I have (internally) is conflicting decisions on what to do next in my life.

To me the conflict is not what to do, as much as it is what to do next. The most difficult thing to me is deciding what the priority for now is.

Being intelligent is oft times a curse as much as it is a gift. Not to say I would rather be unintelligent, however it's very frustrating to have all these goals and not only the know how to do them and complete them but also the motivation.

What is the problem, you ask dear reader?

One, Single word.

Focus.

In my rush to develop new ideas, new goals, new projects.
I seem to forget that in order to actually get somewhere in this world,life,existence- I must be able to decide which to do now, and which to do later. Which is seemingly impossible for me to even imagine being able to do.

Possible Career Paths:
Photography
Exploring/Guide
Military
Political Science
Journalism
Music
[many more]

How does one pick one thing?
Could you tell me please?
I'll take your picture.
If you like.
Or Not.

I don't really know how to choose
I've never been the really decisive one.
Then again, I never really cared.

listen to

Rain dogs
by
tom waits.

no pictures as of yet, i'm sick

things I enjoy doing.

taking pictures
kissing my girlfriend
thinking about politiks
dreaming
strumming on guitar ( i can read sheet music, but thats it)
boxing
thinking about philosophy
acting out hypothetical situations in my head
smiling
puppies
reading quotes
playing video games
nature
wondering why we are here
spoiling my friends
defending my friends

but most of all
I enjoy loving
every minute
of my life with
whomever
i'm with at
whatever time i'm with them. . . .